Day 71--10 weeks (plus one day)

Weight: 331 pounds; +2 pounds this week; -18 pounds total

So this is the first time in 10 weeks that I've gained any weight. I know exactly why--because I haven't tried. Posting this is proving to myself that I'm not giving up.
I'm going to allow myself this speed bump and get over it. The only thing I can tell myself is to realize yes, I've made a mistake; yes, it's incredibly embarrassing; yes, it looks like a failure, but guess what--I'm here and I'm not giving up. You acknowledge your downfalls. You see what needs to change. You change.

Don't let the judgements you place on yourself dictate who you are.

On a brighter note, Andrew and I had our first family photos taken yesterday. We've been married over 5.5 years and the only real photos we have aside from taking the camera out and snapping a shot here and there, are of our wedding. The woman who took them, Arlee Greenwood, is an amazing photographer and does absolutely beautiful work. I cannot wait to get them back! Here is a teaser she put together about 4 hours after our session. The rest will come in about a week:
Keep moving forward...

Meals
1/2 cup cottage cheese
1/2 cup blueberries
2 cups of water

2 fococcia buns
3/4 cup chicken breast
2 slices Havarti cheese
1 tbsp mayo
2 tsp mustard
1 cup spinach
1 tomato
4 pickle slices
2 cups water

20 gingersnaps
1 cup of milk
2 cups of water

2 cups of water

5 oz filet mignon with 2 tbsp BBQ sauce
2 manicotti shells with:
2 tbsp ricotta cheese
1 tbsp mozzarella cheese
1 tsp parmesan cheese
1 artichoke heart
1/2 cup raw spinach cooked
2 tbsp red and yellow bell peppers
approx 1/4 cup marinara sauce
2 cups of water

4 Oreo cookies
2 tbsp peanut butter
1/2 cup vanilla ice cream
1 cup of water

Exercise
None

Notes:
-I finally made the manicotti that I've been planning to make for almost a month! Those shells have been sitting on the counter taunting me. It was soooo good! Also as a heads up, we got the filet mignons at Costco and I must say they were the best, most tender fillets we have found yet--plus Andrew has become quite the grill master, so his BBQing expertise has a lot to do with it, I'm sure.
-This will not be a 6 days of exercise week, but hopefully I can fit it in tomorrow. I've made a tentative plan to meet a friend, so hopefully I won't be swayed to cancel on her. I literally have too much to do; I'm going to have to make sacrifices here and there. Although I don't want my health to be one of them, I realize that it's only temporary because I've just bitten off more than I can chew at the moment. Sad feelings especially when I'm trying to do better.