Day 10

Tomorrow we're having friends over from out of town. I'm going to do my best to stick to whatever this is so that I don't become overwhelmed by any sort of temptations, and that I get some exercise in as well. A typical weekend with friends would consist of mostly sedentary events such as watching movies, playing board games--basically sitting around the living room enjoying each other's company. There would be food--oh the food! Chips & dips, cookies, cakes, candies, ice cream, pop, you name it--if it's going to eventually give you anything from cavities to a heart attack, it's my main focus as far as sustenance goes.
I want to be the perfect hostess. I LOVE entertaining. I want my guests to feel like they don't have a worry in the world when they're blessing my home with their friendship. I want every dog hair mopped up, every corner to be dusted, every room to sparkle. I love to make people feel welcome. I think I don't always do that though. I don't have many friends, but the friends I do have, I love dearly. I try to nurture our relationships by serving my friends in this way. The family I grew up with is far away, and so my friends (and wonderful in-laws) make up my family when I am not "back home." I love the life that I live and the beautiful hearts I am surrounded with.
So I went shopping for groceries to prepare for the meals we're going to have. On the list were chips and ice cream sandwiches, among other ingredients for preparations of the BBQ-ing variety. I bought the chips for the guys primarily. I know they can eat them in moderation, or indulge, and be able to work it off without blinking. I don't plan to partake in those goodies. I got to the ice cream as I was shopping. I saved it as the last item so that it wouldn't melt while I shopped for everything else. I was in the store over 45 minutes mind you! When I was writing the list, it was kind of a last minute, "Andrew, should I get ice cream?" We decided, meh, or yeah, or something similar; so sure, I'll get ice cream.
Why the heck did I even ask? I'm pretty sure it's because I would expect that something like that would be available should my guests suddenly have a craving for an ice creamy treat. What I'm only thinking about now is I bought a variety of colourful and succulent dripping fruits in which we can indulge in. If the ice cream isn't available, nobody will really care. It's me and my want to cover all bases. I want to see the devil behind their eyes when they light up, "Ice cream, you have???!" Maybe I'M the devil peering into innocent little reflective surfaces that I'm trying to tarnish by my need to satisfy every temptation. Wow. What a friend! haha
I'm glad I didn't get the ice cream sandwiches. It's another one of those things--so little and seemingly harmless, but it's things like this that have helped me gain this sense of healthy self.
Every little bit counts.
Just as an aside, I wanted to thank everyone for their very positive feedback I'm receiving. Like I've said before, this started out as a selfish purpose. What has happened, is I read about how these little things I'm doing help to inspire, and your stories inspire me so much! It's like the snowball effect: the more awesome I see everyone else being, the more it motivates me to try that much harder. So thank you for your comments, and we'll all keep up the excellent work!

Meals
1 bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios
1 cup of milk
2 apricots
2 cups of water

2 cups of homemade split pea soup with ham chunks
2 cups of water

2 slices of left over pizza (that darn pizza is starting to haunt me--maybe it'll be around long enough that I must throw it out without the guilt)

3 cups of water

1 soft taco (filled with ground beef, lettuce, tomato, plain yogurt [thanks Becky!] and NOT SOUR CREAM--I could die, and NO CHEESE--again with they dying)
1 hard taco (same as above)
1/2 cup apple juice

1/2 cup orange juice
1/2 cup water

Exercise
43 minutes uphill treadmill
30 minutes lower body machines
10 minutes stretching

Notes:
-You should have seen Andrew's eyes when I pointed out that I didn't have cheese. It was awesome! I snuck in 1/2 cups of apple juice and orange juice--I try to stay away from juices because of the sugar content, but we were out of water and I can't stand tap water. Not only does the tap water taste bad, but I have kidney stones and the mineral content is not good for people with kidney stones. I was advised not to drink tap water, and because I haven't for over 8 years almost (unless that was the only option) maybe I've become a princess about letting tap water touch my mouth. Whatever the case, I needed liquids and so I drank the juice. I try to only have 1/2 cup of juice a day if I have juice.
-My workout---pretty good. Again, I wanted the over 50 minute mark but my friend showed up and I had to leave at a scheduled time again today and so I couldn't squeeze it in. I have to give credit to her. She got my lazy sprained ankle back to the gym. I was so scared but after that first day, I thought I should have been doing this for weeks! All is well. :)