Day 225-Day 226: Homeless

When you're fixing to sell a house there's little time for anything. No time to eat, or exercise, or snuggle with your loved ones, or take a bath. All there is to do is clean the house, tidy the house, paint the house, de-clutter the house, sanitize the house, sign papers about the house, all the while living within the house, and eventually all this work just to say good bye to the house. In the end, there's usually a bigger house on the other side, a cleaner house, a newer house, a house you'll call home to for so much longer than you did the first, the house with a garage (finally), the house where you have your fresh start.

It's difficult to be excited about the new house when your life is consumed by your current house. There's the pressure to sell as this house is financing the down payment for your new house, so you want to make the best possible first impression for potential buyers so they don't have a reason to walk away. The house, YOUR house that you're living in is no longer your house but a piece of property you're selling. Your pictures are down, your comforts are packed away. Short of living out of a suitcase, you're now a stranger in the house you called home for so long, and it's finally in the best condition it's ever been in and now you can't enjoy it.

Your house is no longer yours. The potential buyers, whether you or they know it or not, are allowing you to stay in their house now. You want them to feel comfortable in their new house when they come to look at it, not awkward as a guest in your house. You're now the guest living in your beautiful old house for the next 2 months or so. You should have said "good bye" months ago to avoid feeling this emptiness.

'And your new house isn't yet done. So you visit your new house, still vacant, floor-less, echoing. It's still the builder's house, empty coffee cups and Gatorade bottles thrown on the ground--not remotely placed anywhere with purpose that you would take such care to set. In a sense, you're homeless. Not trying to compare that to the devastation of actually being homeLESS, but there isn't really a comfortable spot to call your own, something you've known within these walls, for so long.

Then I get sick and I want to curl up and sleep all day. But the home owners may be here to visit soon. I have to pick up the last of my crap so their house is perfect, being a respectful guest. I have no comfort. I have no carefree ease that I'm accustomed to. I miss my house, yet I can't wait to say good bye to it. We're here at the end and I just want it to be over.

-Meals

3 oz roast

1 can spaghetti

2 cups skim milk

2 cups of water

4 slices of whole grain bread

2 slices reduced fat cheddar cheese

2 slices skim swiss cheese

1 cup tuscan tomato soup

2 cups of water

1 can citrus green tea

3 shortcake cookies

-Exercise

None (today)

30 minutes walk/jog (yesterday)

60 minutes personal training of cardio and strength (yesterday)

-Notes

I'm finding it difficult to keep up with posting every day because of the time commitments I have with everything involved in the move. Hopefully this will be short lived. Hopefully.